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teh_sandwich) wrote2010-06-21 06:55 pm
teh_sandwich) wrote2010-06-21 06:55 pm
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Entertain me, Anons!
Leave me an anonymous (or not) comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on your friends list, and tell me why you continue to come back here. Tell me anything. Tell me what you really think of me or yourself. Anything!
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Right now I'm in an argument with myself. I'm on waitlist for my Physiology class and I'm not sure if I'll be able to get in. The people that got in was until #6 and I'm #10. OTL MIND(1) is telling me to just accept it and spend the rest of the summer enjoying my free time..aaah that sounds really great, BUT MIND(2) is trying to convince me to make an effort so I can get in the class so I can finish my prerequisites as soon as possible. that would be nice too.
but thinking of all the animes, mangas, downloads, etc. I could do, watch, read during my free time is so tempting, BUT thinking that I'll finish this course asap is so refreshing too. OTL
This is sooo random XD well. You said anything, and this is something. At least to get this off my mind.. :)
I'll probably spam you more in the futureRandom Thoughts XD
I hate summer because that means job hunting and job hunting means pressure.
I'm getting really pumped about grad school.
I need money.
I'm getting really sick of the stormy weather where I live. That's twice in one week that I've had to just drop what I'm doing and go to a 'safe spot' because there were tornado sirens blaring.
Orlando Bloom is engaged. I am UNplesantly surprised. I've had a crush on him since I was 15. Now who's gonna be my celeb crush? I feel creepy liking married celebs.
I want to punch Stephenie Meyer in the face.
Fuck BP.
YAY, COMCAST IS COMING TOMORROW! I CAN HAZ BETTER INTERNETZ!
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But my big deep,down dark thing is... I hate Akira Amano. I hate how she ended the future arc. I've seriously never hated an anime, manga, manga author, fandom thing bad. She's made me hate the manga and I only thought Kishimoto was the only one who could make me feel this special feelings. But no one in the fandom cares, so I can never bitch. But if I ever met her in person I'd be tempted to punch her in the face.
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I hate Akira Amano. I hate how she ended the future arc. You are not alone!!! She ended that arc WAAAAY too suddenly, and Byakuran's death was shit. 8| NOT ONLY THAT but it pisses me off that all the character development we saw with Tsuna in the future arc practically vanished once he got back to the past. He's STILL resisting becoming the Vongola boss!? REALLY Amano? :|||| Just what the hell. And why are ALL the females utterly useless?! >|
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Hmm it just seems like the whole community rooted Byakuran's death on. I know alot the people who actually like Byakuran just wanted him dead.... Sadly.. It reminded me of when Orochimaru was killed. ;w;
I guess, maybe I'm just being partial, but I never wanted Tsuna to kill. A part of me likes the goofy loser, who stands up for his friends without having to break his code of honor on not killing. I guess I just thought it was bullshit because he went ape shit after Uni needlessly sacrificed herself because Tsuna burned him to death, which imho was overkill and gruesome, without the need of those damn arcobaleno. If you asked me it defeated his whole, he wasn't going to be that jerky boss he was in the future plans, because it took him one step closer to it. I was looking forward to him trying to make a Vongola that wasn't killing and violence, and now it's just going to be a hypocritical mafia where they use violence and killing to gather peace. I guess just the huge plot holes, character flaws, and my favorite character being crapped on really makes me hate the series in a way.
I'm also sick of seeing it say this new arcs so popular, because it sucks imo. I just hope they tie it up and move on from this Shimon filler arc of doom that killed the future arc.
ffffffff long rant is long... D:
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Glad we cleared that up!
I really love my f-list; even if I don't comment (is a major lurker liek whoa!) on all the entries I like hearing about how other peeps are doing. I think it is really nice of people to share their personal lives with everyone out here. Most of my f-list is into fandoms that I ship, so it is also really cool to get a little glimpse of who they are outside of the fics they write, fanarts they draw or comments they make on other works. It is very encouraging to me to see how friendly and supportive people can be; I feel like sometimes online friends are like super fast pen-pals that have a surprising amount of openness and honesty. I feel very fortunate to be part of the online community, especially since nobody I know in real life is into yaoi and cosplaying and other stuff like that.
Now for the spilling of the guts....
*deep breath*
I'm patently terrified that my headache stuff is not going to get better. I've missed a ton of days at work, (nearly a full month) and even though I'm on FMLA (family medical leave act- which is a leave of absence granted by the law if you are certifiably sick) I feel guilty for missing work and I worry that my boss and the head of my department think worse of me or are disappointed and also just the burden it is placing on the other employees as they try to fill in the work that I do. My family is pressing me to just move back home, which is far from ideal- if I resign from work I will have no health insurance, which is a really bad thing right now! On the other hand, I feel like a big leech and dead-weight since I'm missing work so often. And the drugs they have me on? I'm a space-cadet! When I'm not afflicted by the migrane/headache hell they have made it impossible to concentrate for more than ~half an hour, and since my work is dependent on higher brain functioning (I'm a research scientist) this is not a good thing for productivity! This has also affected my output of fanfic writing, which I really care about and is a great creative outlet for me. Bummer!!!! The dizziness and nausea that accompany the headache make me scared to drive- I feel like I'll pass out sometimes- and I've lost ~6 pounds, which when you are already kind of scrawny is NOT a good thing either. I'm really in need of a miracle cure, like yesterday!
/end wooby confession of angst